So have you felt the pressure?
Head weigh down as darkness climb up the sky
Have you ever kept lights of your room off?
Without repelling darkness, just embracing it.
Have ever your mind struck with heavy thoughts that are unnecessary
Where you fall in thinking so deep… You know only the fall…
As in conscious you never touched the ground.
Have you regretted on your Past which just binds and slows you down…
The Present’s bewilderment & suffocation on what people will talk about you…
& ofcourse the fear of “Future”. Have you ever related yourself to a song,
On how society is against you how the hate you, take you and try to penetrate you.
You wish to forfeit your life.
Mind fountains with suicidal thoughts and homoscidal fantasies…
For all these I say smile.. Just smile
Don’t talk about two faces for which I was betrayed by my own kin.
Don’t point me your fall as I heard laughs at my failure from my mentors
Don’t talk about hate for which I have heard my death wishes from my own people.
But still I smile for now & and forever
I smiled as they carved scars of betrayal
I smiled as they burst out laughing at my lowest
I smiled on their death wishes for me. & I will smile… on every dig I dig
I will smile on every foundation I lay,
on every brick I keep
For all the pain and hurt they gave
I will smile decorating their grave.☺